We are on a Day 5 of Ramadhan Year 2015 today. Alhamdulillah, I still managed to fast full day despite having a breastfed toddler. With Son #1, I lost many days of fasting because he demanded milk all the time, unlike his younger brother.
Anyway, I came across the picture of lampu lip lap which I put on this blog many years ago from a link at someone’s blog. That reminds me that I want to buy a new design for this year. Perhaps something more elaborate or more Christmas-y like the one I envied at the house by the road. I could buy something like what they put up at the pelamin nowadays but no, no I want it very Aidilfitri feeling, with ketupat and whatnot..if you get what I mean.
Coming back to the post title, what does Aidilfitri means to me once I became a parent?
It’s about making good memories.
It doesn’t matter if at 6 years old, my autistic son has no idea of what this festive season really is, in fact after all these years of Ramadhan and Aidilfitri, he still didn’t understand why we go to Pasar Ramadhan to buy food, or why Mama and Abah are not eating during daytime and why we eat during Maghrib time..sigh!
Now that his younger brother is one year plus, I feel that there’s hope that at least one of my children will get to enjoy this festive season more deeply. I envision the day when we gather to cook for berbuka, and then we’ll enjoy the dishes and then when it’s time to celebrate Hari Raya, we will make kuih raya and I will get to cook their favorite Raya dishes so that they could enjoy it.
Well, a mother can only hope so much
But for now, I want to create good memories with them. So that one day when they grow up, whenever they describe to their family on what Aidilfitri with me as their mom feels like, it is something cherished and loving, happy and joyful. Hopefully they will remember the lampu lip lap..heh!